Thinking back over the years and all that has happened to me, I wonder, “What is my purpose?” Am I here to truly teach others? Why do so many have these same abilities and yet little is known about them? Studies can be done to show the brain reacting to abilities–why is this not a science yet?
Why do people believe in a higher being? Or that a higher being will do for you if you pray to it? Or even that an evil being exists to counteract the higher being? And still, many people still can’t believe what is in front of them? I was raised Christian and taught to go to Church every Sunday and love one another. But people are flawed, and some of my biggest challenges in life have come from people expecting me to be a certain way. I take the road less traveled and walk with the others who have chosen that road. I hope to gain knowledge from others as well as share mine, hoping we can grow together and help others starting on the same road.
Was I Cursed?
Because of my religious background, I did not believe that my abilities were from God at first. I was taught that Satan will trick you in so many ways and that he will use those who should be trusted against you. Truly, I believe that Heaven and Hell exist (I have been on the outskirts of both). I have done the Church tradition; and I was even a youth leader. I trusted those around me, including the preacher. But then this same community called me a witch, and some called me an angel of Satan. There were threats to come to my house and hang me as a witch. Wow, so old school. I have met many who wanted to make my life a living hell.
As a result of the threats, I fell into a deep depression. But I also \spent that time searching and praying and getting to know God. I am grateful for that experience because it helped make me become who I am today. The hateful and mean can make one do some soul searching.
Finding a New Home
At first, I felt I was lost and felt I had done everything wrong. I truly thought Satan had a hold on me. I prayed and searched for answers. That leads me to a religious community that put some amazing people in the right path for me. I met preachers and spouses of preachers who had the same abilities; they told me that I was God’s child and very special and to not let others keep me from my job on earth. I have a true heart for God and helping others. But I am not, though, like everyone else. I haven’t really been one to do what other people tell me to. But I do believe we will ultimately be judged for our actions, and I try to do the right thing.
None of us know exactly what God has planned for us or exactly what we are to do to serve. We just have faith and live our daily lives and do right by others. God guides me each day to be where I need to be and I depend on him to help me each day.
I have some amazing people in my life through faith communities, and they are my biggest supporters as well as my prayer warriors. Also, I enjoy talking with them and being able to have a spiritual conversation without feeling judged or condemned. I love that I can pray aloud with my friends and be myself.
Learning Lessons
Because of the negative experiences I’ve had, I create a protective white light shield around me whenever I go out in the world. I have learned I can put out an energy that can either push someone away and they not want to interact with me or send out energy and make them want to talk to me. I am a fixer. If you are broken, I want to help. I am broken too, and I do not want anyone to feel as I have (and sometimes still do). I am still occasionally attacked by those who, I guess, have nothing better to do??? Finally, I do not believe my purpose is to please people — I want to do what is needed, and when my time comes I will pass over and do my job in the spiritual world.
The Road So Far
My abilities started years ago as a child. We lived in a two-story house and my bedroom was at the top of the stairs with my door faced the landing. Every night I would hear someone coming up the stairs. Sounded like a high-heeled shoe on one foot and nothing on the other. Every time I thought I would see a lady come up the stairs, but there was nothing. My mom told me it was the house settling. Typical parenting from a busy mom who is my Hero to this day. She did not understand anything about spirits then. She raised me perfectly and is very supportive of me and my abilities.
My second interaction was with my aunt after she passed away. Every weekend we would stay at my grandmother’s house, and sometimes my aunt and uncle and 2 cousins would come down to stay. On Sunday mornings, my aunt always made sure she was up before everyone and would make coffee. I saw that as my opportunity to spend time with her. She would put me on her lap and ask about school and other things. To me, she was an angel. Very loving and soft-spoken and genuine. I have heard her angry too– she was a mom. She passed away when I was seven.
The next weekend I stayed at my grandmother’s. I will have you know that a white angelic light went down the hall to the kitchen just like she did every time. I lay there at first, thinking, did I just see that? How do I know that it is my aunt when all I saw was a light moving? I knew in my heart it was her. As I made my way to the kitchen, the light was gone. I could feel her but not see her. Of course, no one believed me when I told them–it’s hard to wrap your head around something you do not understand.
Continuing Experiences
Before my first husband and I were married, his grandmother passed away. He lived with her and we knew what it sounded like when she came down the hall to go to bed. We would hear her at night sometimes coming down the hall to her room, which was our room after her passing. I never saw her or communicated with her. I just knew she was there. After a while, she stopped walking down the hall.
I became pregnant and that is when my abilities started changing. I would know things and feel things and was developing that sixth sense. At the time, I thought it was women’s intuition or mother’s intuition. I trusted it and never gave it a second thought. When I became pregnant with twins the second time, and things really heightened. I still did not think anything of it.
Beautiful story. A lot of what you’ve said resonated with me as well. I to was brought up in the Christian faith. At the age of 10yrs old there was a devout minister who told me I have the spirit of discernment. I did not know what that meant at that age. I knew I was different, just didn’t know what I got had a name. Later as I grew older I started to understand, and my abilities went beyond what was just discernment as I took an interest to what’s out there, my spiritual psychic development. We will always learn new things with those that are doing Spirit work. There will always be a change in our energy frequencies to keep up with the vibrations in our psychic/mediumship work. Great story and thank you for sharing! Namaste.. <3
This story so spoke to me. You have no idea how much it meant to me to hear that someone else dealt with and are dealing with the very same issues. So many in the religious realm told me I was evil, the Bible says I am evil etc., etc. Through many trials and tribulations in finding who I am in the spiritual realm and why me with these abilities, I have finally realized this is a calling. I am here to help–a sort of guide to help those lost find the path. That realization brought me peace, joy, love and an amazing connection to God.
I prayed nightly for 30 days, asking the Almighty to ease my suffering (hurt from leaving my wife) but received no response. I went to the Bible and read “to pray with all my heart” and i prayed again for 30 days with much intensity and then it happened. A girl, around 30, came to me and said she was pulled her from a light that emanated a window, the same window where I said my prayers. She proceeded to disappear, became invisible and then an aura appeared above her head. There was more and a conversation followed.
Amy: Worry not, as we all have gifts, and many do not know that they have them.
From Einstein: “Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.”
The “Source of the Light” loves you and keeps you safe and knows of your gifts.
You are a ‘supermom’.
Walk in peace.
Joe Wagner
I can agree regarding gifts to believers in Christ; there are such gifts given to some, but not all believers. Read 1 Corinthians Chapter 12, verses1 – 11 where they are outlined. That includes the gift of prophesy and miraculous powers. So clearly the supernatural is not separate from Christianity as some claim.
But like all things these gifts come with a danger they can be misinterpreted or misused. They must be approached with a skeptical yet not disbelieving attitude. To often we use this chapter to validate gifts and don’t consider the second part of every gift mentioned.
In verse 3 It states …. and no one can say, “Jesus is Lord,” except by the Holy Spirit. Then after each gift is mentioned it further adds something to the effect of ….”by means of the same Spirit” That clearly means the one with the gift also has it not because of anything they did but instead because the Holy Spirit (God) wanted it that way. So here a means is given where we can test whether the gift is real or not. The test is How do we apply it. Is it done so in God’s glory or for our own ? If it is done while glorifying God then the person probably has a real gift. But if only to make yourself seem important, you are on dangerous ground.
Gifts are given to be used for good, not just randomly. That is why I often question people who make claims they contact the departed or get impressions from them. It is not something that is commonplace like many think. Rather most cases of seeing the departed can be attributed to preconditioning or other wishful thinking, not the real contact with someone they knew. And that too can be traced back to scripture. God would not give one such a gift to be used lightly, instead it would be for some specific purpose that is to his glory. (Do we really think such a gift would be to simply allow a ghost hunter to speak to a spirit about the weather?)
Consider the parable Jesus taught about the rich man and poor man stated in Luke 16, verses 22 -26. Pay particular attention to verse 26 where the rich man is told by Abraham “And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.”. That pretty much negates any visitation by spirits from the dead, or for that matter us contacting them. So when we think Aunt Sally has come back to visit us, who is it really?
To conclude, it is true the scripture deals with the supernatural or paranormal at times. So clearly Christians can’t call everything related to spirits “of the devil”. Some certainly is, but some is not. Which brings us to another gift, that of discernment. I believe if a gift of prophesy is given that person also needs to be able to separate truth from deciet of demons. It is a slippery slope when we connect paranormal investigating with the afterlife. It can be done, but caution and a skeptical approach used to sort out any deceit by satan and his forces.
Jim….your thoughts are awesome as always. Being a psychic medium–I am the biggest skeptic. My biggest “test” if you will, is to hear the intention of the self-proclaimed psychic mediums. Many have massive egos, some have no higher power belief system, some talk about “Spirit” but can’t explain what that is to them and so many are driven by ego. To sit with a client and tell them that prayer is asked of God to reveal information that only He feels should be revealed is a lot for the client to absorb at times. I always tell my clients that I am simply the messenger. I think all could benefit by a concrete understanding of the Bible.
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